When I am Finally Seen

It was loud

    "She's talking..."

    "He said that was great!"

    "Yes, pass her that please..."

 

Relaying conversations were easy

Listening actively were enjoyable

Observing is in my nature

that, of others

 

Where there is noise

there is silence

When someone is heard

another isn't

Where one is seen

others tend to disappear

 

But a pair of eyes sees me

Hear my spoken words

Warm hands covering the sharp edges

and soft questions to calm my nerves

 

But the very same pair of eyes sees her

Hear her loudest without any words spoken

Marched in front of her to be pierced first

Conversation overflowing for he is the nervous one

 

It is still loud

and I am still observing

but it hurts to notice things 

 

 

Hello everyone, it's getting awkward hearing my own voice so I'm not sure how long I'll be continuing this spoken poetry.... But do enjoy it while it's here! Have fun reading and listening <3 

Repeated Sinner

Words

are a  mixture of letters

that made sounds when clumped together

creating spells both enchanting and poisonous

Words

are the melody I sang to You

so beautiful like a sprouting flower

blooming ever so healthily

only to realize the lack of fragrance

Words

that I poured out countless

hoping to be heard

are mere empty promises made

for actions, I don't partake

 

Loud coming out from the mouth

                                        but silent for gestures unseen 

 

Realiti

Seringkali, yang ku impi singgah
Nada lembut datang menyapa
Membuaiku ke alam indah

Seringkali, degupan ku semakin laju
Rancak mengejar girang tawamu
Semakin hampir semakin tenggelam

Seringkali, ku gigih berseloka
Salam dimulai memecah sepi
Ungkapan pertama dibalasnya mati

Seringkali, ku tekun memetik bunyi
Harap kemudian disambut riang
Namun tamparan nyata dipersembahkan

Seringkali, jiwaku gugur ke bumi
Merenung nasibku bak roda telefon
Berputar separuh kembali ke titik asli

Indelible

Can I like you?

          Heart races seeing others

          Sweat breaking looking at him

          but when the song in the radio starts playing

          it is you on my mind I keep seeing

Can I keep you?

          Late night talks with strangers

          Sharing stories with others

          but with every news I get

          you are the first I wished to text

Can we be more?

          You believed it's better with me

          Saying how you hoped I was there

          but if I were to actually stray

          will you be able to stay?

Can't I let go?

          A good friend before any other

          A permanence no matter what bothers

          but despite all the feelings I uprooted

          the roots of all memories stay grounded.

Perfectly Matched

We laughed at the same jokes
Be it political or a hoax
Our moon shaped eyes curved
and our skin wrinkled

The things we do
the things we love
We rounded equally
Personalities melting perfectly

Indistinguishable principles hold
Cooking the same recipes
Till our hair turns old
Still believing in charity

We, are almost identical
Or so he told me.
But with a plastered smile and wide eyes,
You took his hands and left me none.

Disclaimer: I do not own the picture. Credits goes to https://www.pinterest.com.au/pin/88453580160089585/

She and I,
are so similar
That's why it hurts more.

Unobtainable

I knew
Your flower blooms
Known by your friends
No square cut-outs
with double clicks for hearts
But I knew

and yet I 

I noticed
How you slanted
Relaxing your side
Pouring pleasantries
Inviting conversation
To ease my knotted heart

funny me

I understood
Comprehending facts
A story of two
Of a host and a guest
Provider of comfort
Seeker of warmth

but still I 

I clings
To the spread of warmth
Spring freshness
Claiming for attention
In desperation
but I knew

it is wrong

I dreamt
a fantasy of you and me
momentarily forgetting
the flower by your side
growing painfully
and that I'm beaten

because I know
you're not mine to hold