Showing posts with label crush. Show all posts
Showing posts with label crush. Show all posts

Friday, 27 March 2026

You Had Me at Every Hello

 

The water was dark and murky

I knew of the fishes and corals underneath

Though none I could see

No colours seeping through

Still, I had to cross to the safety of the land

So I wadded through

 

The land people noticed my shrunken skins

and my matted hair, tousled with sands

But they could not have known

For the smiling mask I bartered as greetings

Has dawdled their fury of questions

to a later that did not resurface

 

Multiple acquaintances made for comfort

Naming them friends was for the majestic ball

 Still I felt trapped in those murky waters

Sometimes underneath them

Needing gasps after gasps of air

Short moments of reprieve

 

The land people was most welcoming

Hosting lunches and dinners with open invites

Heard of you from the vines full of thorns

Pulled in, I was

an indirect hello for an introduction

Indeed, you kept me intrigued

 

Up on the yacht we paddled

 Conversations of your puzzles kept my thoughts away from those waters

Puzzles you had completed

though some pieces were misaligned and some were broken

Your "willful, artistic approach"

 

Unfortunately the big wave folded us all

Familiarity keeps me afloat in the coldness

As it is more certain that fighting for life. 

While you boarded your boat to safety,

we waved our goodbyes, too precarious to reach out a hand 

 

The drought dried up the waters

But unforgiving of the pains it led stay

So when you told me you had docked at a merriment of a city

I couldn't help but felt envy

Longing for the possibilities that I didn't voice

that stayed silent as I waved you another goodbye 

 

But you were not the gentleman I had met on that land

Perhaps I had not known you at all

For I had waited at the harbour for as many times as those three pigeons you sent

But you were never there

Huh, wait. You were indeed the same gentleman. 

Ones who leaves.

 

A package had arrived last week

Some excitement were still within me due to the festivities surrounding me

I thought my stars were finally aligned!

Paid for a carriage I had

But ride it? I cannot.

 

Obligations bore me, sentiment exhausts me!

But I had too many qualms in me to sustain myself

I had no more riddles to let you butcher without an answer

I had bouquets of my hopes delivered

But no, there was never a single vase

For the roses were left to dry on the pavements in the harbour 

 


Hello everyone, I'm trying spoken poetry for the first time! Pardon the weird intonation or pauses, I trying it out base on feelings for now so do forgive me if I'm butchering it :(

Also, enjoy! 

Friday, 16 April 2021

You Made Me

 does your heart shrinks

your oxygen depleted

gasping for air


does your nerves break down

suddenly anxious

on pins and needles


does your cheek flushes red

body heating up

feverish


does your teeth shows

smiling all the way up

like a maniac


because mine does

that's what you made me do

Saturday, 21 March 2020

Reciprocated

Because 
if I've said I love you... 

I could take on your offer
and barred my problems to you 
share my sufferings and doubts
and self-imposed judgements
till you want to listen no more

You could have been my saviour 
the shoulder to cry on
the one to rely on when I'm at lost
or to indulge about my sweet successions 
till it starts weighing heavy

We could have been more
No curfew for replies and calls
Of hugs that felt warm and safe
or endearing names said to each other 
Things I still could not imagine

Because 
if I were to say 'I love you'
would you have said it back?



photo taken from Google images

Wednesday, 7 August 2019

Realiti

Seringkali, yang ku impi singgah
Nada lembut datang menyapa
Membuaiku ke alam indah

Seringkali, degupan ku semakin laju
Rancak mengejar girang tawamu
Semakin hampir semakin tenggelam

Seringkali, ku gigih berseloka
Salam dimulai memecah sepi
Ungkapan pertama dibalasnya mati

Seringkali, ku tekun memetik bunyi
Harap kemudian disambut riang
Namun tamparan nyata dipersembahkan

Seringkali, jiwaku gugur ke bumi
Merenung nasibku bak roda telefon
Berputar separuh kembali ke titik asli

Sunday, 13 May 2018

Indelible

Can I like you?
          Heart races seeing others
          Sweat breaking looking at him
          but when the song in the radio starts playing
          it is you on my mind I keep seeing

Can I keep you?
          Late night talks with strangers
          Sharing stories with others
          but with every news I get
          you are the first I wished to text

Can we be more?
          You believed it's better with me
          Saying how you hoped I was there
          but if I were to actually stray
          will you be able to stay?

Can't I let go?
          A good friend before any other
          A permanence no matter what bothers
          but despite all the feelings I uprooted
          the roots of all memories stay grounded.

Sunday, 15 April 2018

Perfectly Matched

We laughed at the same jokes
Be it political or a hoax
Our moon shaped eyes curved
and our skin wrinkled

The things we do
the things we love
We rounded equally
Personalities melting perfectly

Indistinguishable principles hold
Cooking the same recipes
Till our hair turns old
Still believing in charity

We, are almost identical
Or so he told me.
But with a plastered smile and wide eyes,
You took his hands and left me none.

Disclaimer: I do not own the picture. Credits goes to https://www.pinterest.com.au/pin/88453580160089585/


She and I,
are so similar
That's why it hurts more.

Tuesday, 27 March 2018

Unobtainable

I knew
Your flower blooms
Known by your friends
No square cut-outs
with double clicks for hearts
But I knew

and yet I 

I noticed
How you slanted
Relaxing your side
Pouring pleasantries
Inviting conversation
To ease my knotted heart

funny me

I understood
Comprehending facts
A story of two
Of a host and a guest
Provider of comfort
Seeker of warmth

but still I 

I clings
To the spread of warmth
Spring freshness
Claiming for attention
In desperation
but I knew

it is wrong

I dreamt
a fantasy of you and me
momentarily forgetting
the flower by your side
growing painfully
and that I'm beaten

because I know
you're not mine to hold

Wednesday, 29 March 2017

Winter Sanctuary

Pieces of snowflakes fell
On your pale skin it melted
Sending shivers up your spine
Colours drained as body was whitely pelted
Sweater for heat I gave you mine

Wind howling as if chanting a spell
Numbness crept to your exposed vein
Palm friction helped little
Dry skin only giving you pain
Wrapping a muffler before you turn brittle

Wrote me on the pavement though you misspell
Idiotically another body part freezed
Furiously wrapped by the cold breeze
Glancing at my hand, pocketed
My mistake, it's the glove that you appease

Sounds of spring in the bells
Signaling the start of hell
As greens covered the brae
Hey, I have a story to tell
I need winter to stay


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I made a tribute to the past winter season, hope you like it!