Almost number one
Till my legs gave in
No strength left to push through
My friend's back as she glides through the finishing line
was what stayed in my memory
Almost said it out loud
Before you told me your stance
Before I winged you up
Now my love story became a broken record
continuing to repeat through my adulthood
Almost had it enough
Till I chickened out
Swallowing the truth from you
Constantly ruminating on how life would have been
Would you have left him had I told you?
Almost ruined myself
Succumbing to the inviting affections
Envy coating me whole when it didn't
Oh, how I almost became the man I hated
Damned, almost brought me to tears
Almost reaching success
Then I sidestepped
Fear of never enough erupting
My countless attempts flashes through and blurred my vision
Still the volcano melted everything
and I self sabotages
